Sometimes (even now), I get a little frustrated with the blazing, glacier-like speed of my life’s “metabolism.” I want things to go the way I have envisioned them, and feel that I know where my affinities lie, and what I should be doing with my life.
I think now that the first thing I should realize is that God doesn’t give a rip about what I think my affinities are, or how I should employ them. He knows who I am, and how he made me, and to what end.
I just need to be faithful on my end, and kick my expectations and inhibitions to the side and ask God to reveal my course.
“He who hath the steerage of my course, direct my sail.” (Romeo & Juliet)
I need to develop a posture of listening, and turn to these words from Isaiah.
“And I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send, and who will go for us?” Then I said, “Here I am! Send me.” (Isaiah 6:8)
But I need to be careful, too. Because he will.