Some days I don’t feel much like a new creation.
Probably everyone who believes has those kind of days–days where you feel subject to your base, primal urges, instead of having them be subject to you, and to God. Or maybe I’ll just get really angry at someone in traffic, or in line at the grocery store. You know what I mean? There’s always going to be someone who cuts you off, or who brings 37 items into the express lane.
My first response to these people is always anger, and never grace. At the least, I want to yell at them. I want to try and make them understand they’re an idiot, and I’ve been horribly inconvenienced.
I don’t do it, but I want to.
The injustice of it all.
And it feels like simply wanting to do those things is sin. It is.
If God knows my every thought, and numbers the hairs on my head (well, he did when I had hair. Maybe he counts my eyelashes now), then wouldn’t he know that I want to do a flying sidekick into some old lady’s face in Albertsons because she didn’t start making out her check before she got to the cash register?
Of course he would.
Or how about if or when I spot some attractive young woman walking on the street and let my mind wander for a second? Or think about being intimate with a significant other?
While it’s true that the former potential situation feels more sinful than the latter as I write it, both of them actually feel that way sometimes, depending on the context.
The truth is that there are certainly untold number of situations that could or would feel sinful, and when I’m in them, I feel miles from God. I don’t feel like a new creation. I don’t feel cleansed by the blood of Christ.
I feel dirty as hell. I feel tainted by the world.
(…..What can wash away my sin?
Nothing but the blood of Jesus;
What can make me whole again?
Nothing but the blood of Jesus….)
But the Word promises that isn’t the case, if I know Jesus.
“for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. God presented him as a sacrifice of atonement,[i] through faith in his blood.” Romans 3: 23-25
He was sacrificed, for my atonement. He IS sacrificed for my atonement. Daily, His blood makes me clean, even when I don’t feel that way.
“What shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? By no means! We died to sin; how can we live in it any longer? Or don’t you know that all of us who were baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.” Romans 6: 1-4
Live a new life. I get to live a new life. I want to live a new life, subject to the will of God, and not to sin.
and then this, from 2 Corinthians 17-21:
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting men’s sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation. We are therefore Christ’s ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ’s behalf: Be reconciled to God. God made him who had no sin to be sin[a] for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.”
We might become the righteousness of God?