Lord, I want so badly to sleep. I’m tired enough, but my mind is whirling like a light on a police car. The baby is asleep (finally), David is asleep and Jen is sleeping behind me right now.
I’m awake, though. I want my mind to quiet down, but Galatians 2:20 is on my mind
20 I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
and I am aware I need to ask your forgiveness anew, because dying to myself is no easy thing, not when I have to do it every day and my instinct is to live for myself.
I need to be forgiven, though, because it’s hard to forgive.
My discipleship is weak, and it needs to be strong. Forgive me my weakness and strengthen me.
Forgive me my impatience and quick frustration and speak your peace to my heart thirsty for it.
I’m thinking of this trip coming up for work and how easy it would be to slip into old patterns of thought and sin and addiction. But the thing is,
I have been crucified with Christ and it is no longer I who live, but Christ living in me
and when I remember that, things make a little more sense.
But I still need your help, God, because like I said before, dying to myself is not easy. Not when I have this many shortcomings, and I feel like the 1st Lieutenant of sinners.
Forgive me my trespasses, and deliver me from evil.
And right now, God, Lord, Most High, I really just need one simple thing. Besides forgiveness, and deliverance, and strengthened discipleship, and so many other things, please just help me to sleep.
Tomorrow, well…today now, is coming really soon and there is much to do.
3 thoughts on “A Prayer”
Thank you, Tom, for putting into words what my heart has been trying to say to me. If you don’t mind, I will borrow your prayer.
Transparency! And you shall know the Truth and the Truth will set you free. Thanks. Sounds like we may have similar backgrounds. Its amazing how many people I find I have commonalities with. The Kingdom is so big and such a small world all at once. I believe you will find you are not alone in your current circumstance.
I realized I didn’t finish my thoughts…here is round two!
Revel in the truth. Enjoy your liberation . Don’t let your weakness be a burden, but KNOW you are connected to the power of the only God to defeat death. Trust your relationship with Him. Live in His never changing everything!!!