Last Wednesday morning I woke up feeling completely spent–like I could sleep for about a year and it wouldn’t be enough. It seems like the alarm clock has been going off at 0400 forever. I went out to the living room like I usually do to do my reading, but this morning I could hardly stay awake enough to do it, so in the interest of not dozing off and waking up at 0600 when Jenny got up, I decided to just get ready for work earlier instead.
That woke me up, but it didn’t get me any more focused. I gave up and left for work. I asked God to give me a little better perspective on my work. I’ve been having a problem being grateful for what I have, and growing almost resentful about all that I have been missing in regard to my family and my kids. I listened to XM63, The Message, while driving to work, and the last song I heard before I drove up to the gate really kicked me in the nuts—it was by Mark Schultz, and I think it was called “He Was Walking Her Home.”
It made me think about my wife. I hope we have 80 years together, but even if we don’t, after a little while, we’ll have forever.
After getting to my office, I decided to listen to more music on the way to my test site, so I popped in my ear buds, and put the Iphone on shuffle. Got kicked in the nuts a bunch more times:
1. What Love Really Means by JJ Heller
2. Glorious Day by Todd Agnew
3. Give Me Words To Speak by Aaron Shust
4. Washed by the Water by Needtobreathe
5. Where I Belong by Building 429
6. God by Stryper
7. Come to the Water, by Matt Maher
8. Alaba el Padre by En Espiritu y en Verdad
And because my Iphone is crazy:
9. Big Ten Inch Record by Aerosmith
I think it’s going to be a good day.